March 2019 Meditation: Listen to the Stories You Tell

I’ve always kind of been a hater of primarily cognitive, mind-based interventions. In grad school, I was highly critical of cognitive-behavioral therapies and saw them as nothing more than Band-Aids for larger issues happening for folks. If we just try to change people’s thoughts and attributions about something and never address the underlying feelings, the concern is going to pop back up. Feelings! Feelings are where it’s at. If the…

December 2018 Meditation: Be the Caretaker of Your Heart

December 2018 Meditation: Be the caretaker of your heart Card pull: Journeyer of Lakes (aka the Knight of Cups) December has a huge task ahead: to be the culminating month of an unbelievably intense-is-too-mild-of-a-word-more-like-dumpster-fire year. But if anyone is up for this task, it is the Journeyer of Lakes. They are here this month to lend us their good-natured and just-riding-the-waves energy. I think it’s safe to say that this…

Blazes and Cairns: November 2017

I think of the trees and how simply they let go, let fall the riches of a season, how without grief (it seems) they can let go and go deep into their roots for renewal and sleep. … Imitate the trees. Learn to lose in order to recover, and remember that nothing stays the same for long, not even pain … Sit it out. Let it all pass. Let it…

Blazes and Cairns: October 2017

Moving from the grounded energy of Virgo into the airy sign of Libra this month, October will feel like forward motion again. The 8 of Matches brings vibrant energy with it, and it may feel like our energy is being pulled in multiple directions. To avoid feeling overwhelmed, it will help to remember the grounding lessons we learned in September: what foundations did we build last month? What did we…

Blazes and Cairns: September 2017

September is a month grounded in the earth sign of Virgo, a month on the cusp of fall when the seasons begin to change. After the eclipses of August and the fiery and wild energy, it is likely that some things in our lives are different. It’s likely that we saw something about ourselves or a situation in a new light. Maybe we learned some new information, maybe we had…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of August 16, 2017

I have an announcement to make: after this week, I will be publishing Blazes and Cairns on a monthly basis. The posts will serve as monthly forecasts instead of weekly ones. The next one will be out on Friday, September 1. Monthly meditations and grounding rituals will resume then as well. If we’re friends on Facebook, you may have seen the personal essays I’ve been writing and sharing there. (If…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 19, 2017

There is a moment I remember so clearly shortly after my dad had his traumatic fall in August of 2015. He was in the Cardio ICU, and we had just learned that he had acquired sepsis, a blood infection. We were waiting to find out if the infection had reached his heart; if this was the case, it was pretty much game over. I was standing in the hospital parking…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of May 29, 2017

Taking responsibility for my life and the things and people that fill it doesn’t always come easily to me. I guess you could say I am in active recovery from a victim mentality that’s been around for most of my life; it still shows its face on many days. It’s a coping mechanism for me. It’s kept me safe for a long time. It’s kept me from stepping more fully…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of May 22, 2017

I’ve been running from my debt for the last 5 years or so. Or, more accurately: I’ve been running from the feelings of shame I have around my debt. Shame. It’s an insidious home-/heart-/soul-wrecker. All of us have received messages about money and our relationship to it, both from our families and the world at large. The United States is a capitalist culture where hard work and productivity are rewarded. Where…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of May 8, 2017

It’s a moment I will always remember: walking to class as a graduate student in Madison, WI and thinking to myself: I CANNOT BE TRANSGENDER, followed by a wave of nausea and panic. And then an immediate shoving down of those feelings. For the next 3 years or so. I don’t remember what prompted that thought, but I can remember my aversion and fear so clearly. I even remember what…