December 2018 Meditation: Be the Caretaker of Your Heart

December 2018 Meditation: Be the caretaker of your heart Card pull: Journeyer of Lakes (aka the Knight of Cups) December has a huge task ahead: to be the culminating month of an unbelievably intense-is-too-mild-of-a-word-more-like-dumpster-fire year. But if anyone is up for this task, it is the Journeyer of Lakes. They are here this month to lend us their good-natured and just-riding-the-waves energy. I think it’s safe to say that this…

Blazes and Cairns: November 2017

I think of the trees and how simply they let go, let fall the riches of a season, how without grief (it seems) they can let go and go deep into their roots for renewal and sleep. … Imitate the trees. Learn to lose in order to recover, and remember that nothing stays the same for long, not even pain … Sit it out. Let it all pass. Let it…

Blazes and Cairns: September 2017

September is a month grounded in the earth sign of Virgo, a month on the cusp of fall when the seasons begin to change. After the eclipses of August and the fiery and wild energy, it is likely that some things in our lives are different. It’s likely that we saw something about ourselves or a situation in a new light. Maybe we learned some new information, maybe we had…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 19, 2017

There is a moment I remember so clearly shortly after my dad had his traumatic fall in August of 2015. He was in the Cardio ICU, and we had just learned that he had acquired sepsis, a blood infection. We were waiting to find out if the infection had reached his heart; if this was the case, it was pretty much game over. I was standing in the hospital parking…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 12, 2017

Patience is not my forte. I like quick outcomes and immediate feedback. In all areas, really: new hobbies, relationships, emotional processes, other people’s processes. Come to find out, most of life doesn’t work so quickly and immediately. I sometimes joke that the world of academia broke me. By which I mostly mean: I felt deeply unprepared for the “real world” when I left the structure and certainty of higher education.…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of June 26, 2017

I’ve been working on my relationship with the Universe, god, spirit–whatever–lately. Mostly in terms of trust. I feel like we’re in couples therapy. And just when I feel like I’m doing most of the talking, something like what happened on Saturday happens. This past weekend was the first time in I don’t know how long that I had three days in a row with minimal-to-no plans. I spent Saturday entirely…