Blazes and Cairns: November 2017

I think of the trees and how simply they let go, let fall the riches of a season, how without grief (it seems) they can let go and go deep into their roots for renewal and sleep. … Imitate the trees. Learn to lose in order to recover, and remember that nothing stays the same for long, not even pain … Sit it out. Let it all pass. Let it…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of August 16, 2017

I have an announcement to make: after this week, I will be publishing Blazes and Cairns on a monthly basis. The posts will serve as monthly forecasts instead of weekly ones. The next one will be out on Friday, September 1. Monthly meditations and grounding rituals will resume then as well. If we’re friends on Facebook, you may have seen the personal essays I’ve been writing and sharing there. (If…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of August 9, 2017

“What are you feeling?” This is the question my therapist kept asking me as she held my body in various stretches and positions. This was my first and only session of yoga therapy with a therapist I had been seeing for awhile. When she first suggested we do a yoga therapy session I was hesitant for multiple reasons. First, any practice that involves me moving my body in front of…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of May 8, 2017

It’s a moment I will always remember: walking to class as a graduate student in Madison, WI and thinking to myself: I CANNOT BE TRANSGENDER, followed by a wave of nausea and panic. And then an immediate shoving down of those feelings. For the next 3 years or so. I don’t remember what prompted that thought, but I can remember my aversion and fear so clearly. I even remember what…