August 2019 Meditation: You Are the Creator of Your Story

Do you remember how full of light you were when you were brought into this world? You were radiant and wild and beautiful. Anything was possible. Everything was possible. You were a child who wanted the whole world. Given all that has happened in this human life of yours, it makes sense that your light feels dimmed, weakened. It makes sense that the world seems small and that possibility stretches…

July 2019 Meditation: You Are Safe

That might be hard to believe right now. You might think to yourself: I’ve never felt safe in this lifetime. And that’s understandable given all that has happened in your life. You have a litany of reasons to believe that the world is an unsafe place. That people and life are not to be trusted. However: we also know that you remember what it feels like to be full of…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 26, 2017

In the winter of 2015, I was deeply unhappy with my life. I was struggling in my job, my relationship, and the city I had moved to the summer before. I was miserable and feeling pretty hopeless about things getting any better. Somehow I stumbled across Marie Forleo’s B-School–an online school for entrepreneurs–and knew it would be a game-changer for me. I watched her free promo videos and took endless…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 3, 2017

The wonderful people in my life. Humor, love, and perspective. A manager who listens to and takes me seriously. Sleeping in. Groceries delivered. Rest. Kisses on the neck. Pancakes with chocolate chips and bananas. Laughter. Brisk walks in quiet Iowa towns. Naps, baths, and sexy times. Jack’s Mexican pizzas. Guest passes at the gym. A new therapist. Brunch w/ bextie. Creating badass half sheets. Thoughtful and trans competent doctors. Hot…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of May 15, 2017

Here’s the truth: I’ve been depressed this past week. I am currently depressed. It’s taken an extreme amount of energy to do anything besides lie in my bed–dark curtains drawn–and watch Netflix. I vacillate between feeling empty and tight-hearted to wrapped in darkness and sore-hearted. I am continually exhausted and generally feel overwhelmed by the world. Things that typically bring me joy feel pretty meaningless; I can’t take them in.…