Blazes and Cairns: November 2017

I think of the trees and how simply they let go, let fall the riches of a season, how without grief (it seems) they can let go and go deep into their roots for renewal and sleep. … Imitate the trees. Learn to lose in order to recover, and remember that nothing stays the same for long, not even pain … Sit it out. Let it all pass. Let it…

Blazes and Cairns: September 2017

September is a month grounded in the earth sign of Virgo, a month on the cusp of fall when the seasons begin to change. After the eclipses of August and the fiery and wild energy, it is likely that some things in our lives are different. It’s likely that we saw something about ourselves or a situation in a new light. Maybe we learned some new information, maybe we had…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 12, 2017

Patience is not my forte. I like quick outcomes and immediate feedback. In all areas, really: new hobbies, relationships, emotional processes, other people’s processes. Come to find out, most of life doesn’t work so quickly and immediately. I sometimes joke that the world of academia broke me. By which I mostly mean: I felt deeply unprepared for the “real world” when I left the structure and certainty of higher education.…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of June 26, 2017

I’ve been working on my relationship with the Universe, god, spirit–whatever–lately. Mostly in terms of trust. I feel like we’re in couples therapy. And just when I feel like I’m doing most of the talking, something like what happened on Saturday happens. This past weekend was the first time in I don’t know how long that I had three days in a row with minimal-to-no plans. I spent Saturday entirely…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of June 5, 2017

If you needed to go to the hospital in the middle of the night, who would you call to take you? There was a time in the not-so-distant past where I didn’t have an answer to that question. I was single, living alone, and my community ties were young and new. The fact that I didn’t know who I would call left me feeling sad, lonely, and a little afraid.…