December 2018 Meditation: Be the Caretaker of Your Heart

December 2018 Meditation: Be the caretaker of your heart Card pull: Journeyer of Lakes (aka the Knight of Cups) December has a huge task ahead: to be the culminating month of an unbelievably intense-is-too-mild-of-a-word-more-like-dumpster-fire year. But if anyone is up for this task, it is the Journeyer of Lakes. They are here this month to lend us their good-natured and just-riding-the-waves energy. I think it’s safe to say that this…

Blazes and Cairns: November 2017

I think of the trees and how simply they let go, let fall the riches of a season, how without grief (it seems) they can let go and go deep into their roots for renewal and sleep. … Imitate the trees. Learn to lose in order to recover, and remember that nothing stays the same for long, not even pain … Sit it out. Let it all pass. Let it…

Blazes and Cairns: October 2017

Moving from the grounded energy of Virgo into the airy sign of Libra this month, October will feel like forward motion again. The 8 of Matches brings vibrant energy with it, and it may feel like our energy is being pulled in multiple directions. To avoid feeling overwhelmed, it will help to remember the grounding lessons we learned in September: what foundations did we build last month? What did we…

Blazes and Cairns: September 2017

September is a month grounded in the earth sign of Virgo, a month on the cusp of fall when the seasons begin to change. After the eclipses of August and the fiery and wild energy, it is likely that some things in our lives are different. It’s likely that we saw something about ourselves or a situation in a new light. Maybe we learned some new information, maybe we had…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of August 16, 2017

I have an announcement to make: after this week, I will be publishing Blazes and Cairns on a monthly basis. The posts will serve as monthly forecasts instead of weekly ones. The next one will be out on Friday, September 1. Monthly meditations and grounding rituals will resume then as well. If we’re friends on Facebook, you may have seen the personal essays I’ve been writing and sharing there. (If…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of August 9, 2017

“What are you feeling?” This is the question my therapist kept asking me as she held my body in various stretches and positions. This was my first and only session of yoga therapy with a therapist I had been seeing for awhile. When she first suggested we do a yoga therapy session I was hesitant for multiple reasons. First, any practice that involves me moving my body in front of…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of August 2, 2017

Dream: November 16, 2011 I wake up face down on the cold, tiled floor of the church I grew up attending, this floor of patchwork tiles that look like stones: grays, reds, blues; some sharp with angles, some perfectly square but always cold. I push myself up in the darkness and slowly walk toward the closed double doors that open into the sanctuary– the holiest of places– where words are…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 26, 2017

In the winter of 2015, I was deeply unhappy with my life. I was struggling in my job, my relationship, and the city I had moved to the summer before. I was miserable and feeling pretty hopeless about things getting any better. Somehow I stumbled across Marie Forleo’s B-School–an online school for entrepreneurs–and knew it would be a game-changer for me. I watched her free promo videos and took endless…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 19, 2017

There is a moment I remember so clearly shortly after my dad had his traumatic fall in August of 2015. He was in the Cardio ICU, and we had just learned that he had acquired sepsis, a blood infection. We were waiting to find out if the infection had reached his heart; if this was the case, it was pretty much game over. I was standing in the hospital parking…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 12, 2017

Patience is not my forte. I like quick outcomes and immediate feedback. In all areas, really: new hobbies, relationships, emotional processes, other people’s processes. Come to find out, most of life doesn’t work so quickly and immediately. I sometimes joke that the world of academia broke me. By which I mostly mean: I felt deeply unprepared for the “real world” when I left the structure and certainty of higher education.…