July 2019 Meditation: You Are Safe

That might be hard to believe right now. You might think to yourself: I’ve never felt safe in this lifetime. And that’s understandable given all that has happened in your life. You have a litany of reasons to believe that the world is an unsafe place. That people and life are not to be trusted. However: we also know that you remember what it feels like to be full of…

June 2019 Meditation: Trust Your Timing

It makes sense that trying to control things makes you feel safer in the world. Of course, sweet child. You come from a land of chaos and inconsistency—you were the only one you could reliably count on. Here’s the thing though: when you grip something so tightly, when you work so hard to make a thing happen, there’s no room for magic to come in and do its thing. When…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of August 16, 2017

I have an announcement to make: after this week, I will be publishing Blazes and Cairns on a monthly basis. The posts will serve as monthly forecasts instead of weekly ones. The next one will be out on Friday, September 1. Monthly meditations and grounding rituals will resume then as well. If we’re friends on Facebook, you may have seen the personal essays I’ve been writing and sharing there. (If…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of July 3, 2017

The wonderful people in my life. Humor, love, and perspective. A manager who listens to and takes me seriously. Sleeping in. Groceries delivered. Rest. Kisses on the neck. Pancakes with chocolate chips and bananas. Laughter. Brisk walks in quiet Iowa towns. Naps, baths, and sexy times. Jack’s Mexican pizzas. Guest passes at the gym. A new therapist. Brunch w/ bextie. Creating badass half sheets. Thoughtful and trans competent doctors. Hot…

Blazes and Cairns: Week of June 26, 2017

I’ve been working on my relationship with the Universe, god, spirit–whatever–lately. Mostly in terms of trust. I feel like we’re in couples therapy. And just when I feel like I’m doing most of the talking, something like what happened on Saturday happens. This past weekend was the first time in I don’t know how long that I had three days in a row with minimal-to-no plans. I spent Saturday entirely…